this year, no, its this half the year, dunno why i have been getting very agitated over those small things around me..
its like always when i'm with her, i aren't happy with the way things are going, when i voice it out, it always end up quarrelling, its like at times i just can't take it, i keep asking myself this question, "why is all this shitty things coming from the person i least expect?"
dunno why is she that special from all others, tell her this and that for her own good, she dont want to listen, i give up le lar, what she want to do, she go and do,, when something bad happens, just dont way i never tell you, you are too simple-minded to see things, not aware about the society outside, simply trusting everyone on the street...somemore, you are a girl..
i give up hope on you ready, all i could do now is silently hope that nothing bad happens to you, since i say ready you also dont bother to listen...
since the last time i was damn disappointed, i gave up hope already, no point pinning so much hope on it..
monday was already the last straw, dunno whether when i told you that you thought i was kidding or something, but i cant take it anymore..
at times i just wanted to end this life of mine, just hoping i disappear..
i have lost too much of myself, its time i let go of the past and get afresh with life...
leaving for australia as one option, with administration done, with my second cousin sponsoring, it now lies with me whether i will be able to let go all in singapore to start anew there..
i treasure the relationships i had in primary school, that was six years of mine life that i truly anjoyed, esp. the last two years...i was in the gang of six guys, with two other girls, one of whom is qiao zhen the other is diedre..the eight of us had fun running the prefectorial board and school's AVA system, we had fun working as a team...had quite a good friend in primary school, diedre...used to talk and chat with her almost everything under the son, outsider often view us as couple, but it wasn't true, we had the people we liked, it was just that we could talk and think on the same frequency...
the other quite good friend was qiao zhen, she used to sit behind me, teasing was a often thing, think the teasing went abit too far, and developed into a so-called BGR, wasn't really one bah, it was long, very long, but with quarrels a few times, serious ones...
known as the three muskateers, me (desert in chinese), nicholas (bulldozer) and bejamin (benjo)...we were in the same class class, the other three from different classes, tomoteru, julian and domanic....
i remember the times when we copied homework, eat and sleep in the control room when the assemble was on, or the movies after the PSLE...played wrestling in the room and even hide and seek, cause the room was quite big....and had alot of empty boxes....but the most fun part was we were the few who coould enter any building in the school....we came back during school holidays to repair projectors, radios and even TV, we learned and had fun....after which often followed by a treat of rochers and macdonald's meal...all at the expense of mr ang (ang gu kuah)...
we graduated, the eight of us all went to different schools, except for me and qiao zhen, we ended up in unity...
i broke up my relationship with qiao zhen about march in sec one if my memory didn't fail me...it was one relationship i treasure, up till today...after which i id not go into any relationship till sec 2 end of year, where i ended up with fel...
this is just my brief history on why i treasure my past friendship and relationship...
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